Hang on!

Happy New Year...!

We were sitting have dessert a few mins back when my dad made this statement very casually, "See, already Jan 1st is over.". Do you have any idea what that does to someone whose life is gonna take a total flip in 2 months time? All this while, when it was still 2009, marriage was still 'next year. lotsa time!'. Now it's more like 'it's this year'. So essentially, casual statements like this make me panic.

I think i know exactly what plants and trees feel like when they are uprooted. It's the same you know. I've known one kinda life. My parents, my home, my room, living room, kitchen, the locality, the city... For a quarter of a century i've breathed it. And now overnight, literally, my ENTIRE existence is going to change. I remember asking a friend who got married last year, what it felt like to know that you'll be married in a week's time. I remember her saying that it's scary and weird. Back then i thought that i wont feel that way because i'll be with Sandeep and things will all be hunky dory. They definitely still will. But you know, when the most important things that have kept your life normal all these years aren't around? It's gonna be strange...

- Not waking up in my room.
- Not hearing the neighbors talk loud enough for me to lose sleep at 1AM
- Not getting up and groggily walking into the kitchen for some coffee
- Not seeing my parents early morning. This is gonna be difficult man. How? I mean, the two people on whom a child lays implicit trust in are far far away.
- Not seeing the garden every morning.
- Not cussing at people who get their dogs to poop right in front of people's gate
- Not seeing the flower thieves who go about plucking flowers from other people's gardens.
- Not falling asleep on the couch with my mom and dad patiently waking me up for tea. Dad eagerly waiting for me to get my butt off the couch so that we could all have some tea
- Not thinking about the menu for dinner before we even have breakfast
- Mom and I collapsing in a fit of laughter while dad loudly proclaims that we are insane!

These things, seemingly mundane make such a profound difference by their absence. I must admit that i did not usher in the new year with complete happiness. It's not all happy happy for me. I'm gonna be so far away so very soon from mom and dad - the backbone of my life. People should stop making technical analysis of 'how much time is left for what'. It's nice to be ignorant of it sometimes.

So now, instead of waking up and seeing them, i will see them on webcam. Listen to their voice on telephone only. Sad is the only word one would get to describe this.

But, as my dad says, one must always move on. No point being too attached to things.

So here's to a new year! It's gonna change my life, like crazy! But hey, am I looking forward to the adventure or what?! :)